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So there.

*thinks*

Okay, so that advertisement part is done. I would be advertising my new website, but it's not anywhere near done yet, and I don't want visitors til I have more than simply three pages. *chuckles* It's really anemic at the moment and I don't want the first slender thing people see about me to be a dismally scrawny website. *winks* But I know you'll love me anyway. What choice do you have?

I've been thinking about Uncle Bob's impending infant. I remember reading his diary when he'd just found out about it. *grins* It amazes me that nearly nine months have gone by. I wasn't an avid reader of Uncle Bob when I first started, but it wasn't too long after. *chuckles*

===Now Playing Bohemian Polka: Wierd Al Yankovic===

Ya know, if you asked me what drew me to UB in the first place, I'd have to be honest and tell you it was a plug on My Addiction's diary. Faltline bugged me, starting in late January or early February, I don't remember which, to read his diary then sign up for a diary all on my own.

===Now Playing Mmm Mmm Mmm Mmm: Wierd Al Yankovic===

I truly believe that most of the people who are from the RP sectors of .... .... have joined the Diaryland community through the begging, pleading, cajoling, threatening and outright forcing of my deceased Addiction. I could be wrong.... but I don't think so. *chuckles quietly*

===Now Playing You Don't Love Me Anymore: Wierd Al Yankovic===

I know for a fact that, Bill is here because of the Preacher's persuasive manner.

Hell, he talked me into it. For those of you who actually enjoy my diary and aren't reading it because you're masochistic fucks who need to be in so much pain that you can't breathe, in order for you to realize you're alive.... well, erm.... what was I saying? Oh yes.... For those of you who actually enjoy this diary and read it for pleasure or insight, thank Flatline, cause he's the one who pestered me til I started my diary back in March.

===Now Playing Circle: Big Head Todd and the Monsters -- Suggested by Charles===

Woah.... This song......

Seems to me
you and me
are gettin somethin here...
but love is so easily forgotten
And if I pick you up
will you drag me down
if I run to you
will you turn around?
Rise and fall
turn the wheel
cause all life is
is really just a circle.

That hits me hard yet again. *smiles softly* Amazing how that can happen, neh?

If I cry to you
will you laugh me down
what I'm askin you
is to turn around

I love these lyrics. Granted, they're very co-dependant in a way... but everything can become co-dependant if you mis-use it. *chuckles*

This song tells about the fear of committing to a person... wanting someone/thing but being terrified that they'll reject you. *chuckles* Been there, done that.

What I'm askin you
is to turn around

Sometimes I wonder if a song means more because of the lyrics, or because of the condition/position of one's mind when they first hear it.

I think both are pertinent factors.... but.... *shrugs* I couldn't tell you which one was which right now. *chuckles* Sorry Charles, but Circle has officially replaced Perfect Water as my favorite song you suggested. AND, right now... it's the number one favorite out of all the songs I've been listening to. A close second is Iris. Then the extended techno remix of the Carmina Burana. But that's all beside the point.

===Now Playing Perfect Water: Blue Oyster Cult -- Suggested by Charles===

I love this song too.... but it's just not as powerful to me right now. I suppose because it's more a tale of already having the person/thing you want..... And I don't yet have that. So this one has a longing within it, but it's not directly focused on winning the person/thing. It's more focused on what the people....

I know exactly why this one isn't as powerful to me at the moment..... I'm no where near the Gulf Stream and blocks of ice don't melt into my hand like dice. *nods authoritatively* Yupyup, that's exactly it.

(If you haven't heard the song, you're not gonna get that, just give me a pity-chuckle and move on in the entry)

I noticed after the fact that yesterday's entry was a bit on the long side. *chuckles* I'm sure this one is going to be just as involved.... Or so I'd like to think..... *thinks*

===Now Playing Who Wants To Live Forever: Queen===

I went into the Breaker's yesterday to tell the folks to re-up my app. *chuckles* I'm thinking they're looking for a front desk clerk to replace the chica who was there. *smirks*

*looks around suspisciously* Hmmmmm, I don't think anyone I know from in town has discovered my diary as yet...... Hmmmm I think I'll just post the Reader's Digest version of the story... To be on the safe side. *smirks*

I walked in wearing my black jeans and my new sweat shirt... There's an image of a shark with blood dripping from its teeth and beneath the image is the popular phrase... "Bite Me". *smiles sweetly* Perhaps I should have been differently dressed?

Regardless, I told the lady at the counter who I was and that I'd turned in an application in August and would they please refer to that as application for this current position. The woman behind the counter was snippy and indicated by tone of voice and body language that she would rather not deal with me at all, and that the position has most likely been filled already.

*chuckles* Of course, she wasn't that polite.... but I"ll leave it at that.

===Now Playing It's My Life: Bon Jovi===

Woooohooo... So, I have the option of working there... I'm still waiting to hear back from the State, but sometimes it takes more than 6 months before the State personnel get off their butts and send out the test-date notifications. *shrugs* I guess I could have included my test results from the last time I took the battery of tests for a civil service position. *rolls her eyes*

You know why they call it a battery of tests????? Cause you spend 4 hours in a row doing the test in ten minutes and having to wait another 30 minutes for everyone else to finish. Not that they take that long, but some of them don't realize that when you still have you pencil in hand and you're looking at the test pages, the test adjudicator has no choice but to think you're still working on the test questions.

*sighs*

I've always been one of those folks who approaches tests a little oddly. If I have a test, I generally look at the questions. If I know them, I answer them, if I don't, I skip it and come back to it later. If my memory hasn't been jogged, then c'est la vie...

===Now Playing Techno Carmina Burana 4 meg: Carl Orff===

I was talking with Sympatico this morning and he was telling me that he'd get the results of last week's test, today. When I tried being encouraging and such, during the course of the conversation, he said something that just really struck me. And I agree so very much...

I can't remember the exact quote, cause I wasn't brilliant enough to actually save it. *chuckles* However, the gist is something like this...... I realized that I'm there for the knowledge and the grade doesn't matter. It's not like I'm going to flunk out of High School... I'm there to learn something, the grades don't matter at all... it takes the pressure off

I really liked that. And I agree. I kind of think that if we as humans actually paid more attention to what we were learning and less attention to what grade we were getting, we'd be happier. Hell, I know that when I focus on the lesson, rather then the possible outcome.... thus, learing what is being taught, rather than fussing with how the report card is gonna look.... I not only do better in the class, I learn the information.

And I'm not talking only about school classes.

===Now Playing Techno Carmina Burana 6 meg: Carl Orff===

My brother was a "point keeper"... so was my Father. (both are still alive) Jim was not. Dallas was (yes, I'll tell his story eventually......) Bing (my step brother) is definately a "point keeper". Preston is definately a "point keeper". My Mom is a verbal "point keeper", but not to the extent of the others.

I don't know exactly what I am.

I'm of the opinion that he who dies with the most toys..... still dies. *chuckles softly*

Hmmmmmmmmmmmm, should I just end this entry here? Just leave it?

I'm working on putting up my own quote page, similar to the Quoted idea, but with permanant comments, catagorized in some way. I go through the diaries I read and every time I see something I like, I copy/paste it. Eventually I'll post it on the new site... But as I mentioned earlier... It's no where near done enough for me to show it off to people yet. *chuckles*

===Now Playing Africa: Jeff Porcaro (Duran Duran song)===

Anyway, the point is, I'm willing to post nearly any quote, if you'd like me to post one, two, twelve, a hundred... If you have quotes of your own creation, or those from people you read... send them to me, I will be posting them, but it's going to be a while before you can see them up on the web. *chuckles*

Also, I'd like to start something... Again, I was talking with Sympatico and he showed me a few quotes he'd copy/pasted of mine. It totally amazed me. BUT, if any of you have favorite quotes of mine... favorite things that you think of as funny, stupid, entertaining or moronic, feel free to send them to me, I WILL post them.

The heading for that page is still on the drawing board, but I'm thinking of something like... ... they quoted me???. Dunno. But I would really like your input, quotes, suggestions, etc.

===Now Playing Driving The Last Spike: Genesis===

Post messages for me on my message board... Kiffany's words are getting lonely. *chuckles*

Speaking of Kif... Please go check out her diary... and then check out Luc's... tell me if these two are not two halves of the same zygote. *chuckles quietly* Or something. Their speach patterns are so similar. I wouldn't be surprised to find out that Kif were Luc's twin sister seperated at birth. Or maybe even by birth? *smirks*

Anyway... I highly reccomend both of them today. There's a sale on plugs today, I suppose. Two for one.

So... I was lazy today... I absolutely lazed out. I made dinner, from scratch... but still... I sat in front of the TV most of the day watching The Sentinel (Gawd I love that show.... and he's SOOOOOO fucking good looking *grins*), SNL (Saturday Night Live for the unintiated among you), Kids In The Hall, Whose Line Is It Anyway, Sliders and The Sentinel again. I would have popped in The Matrix, but I wasn't willing to go through all the work of finding it.

Dinner was good, in my opinion... but it could have been better. *chuckles* Had I not been so fraggin lazy, and if I"d had a little more flour, I'd have made my own pasta and made Ravioli... but, I didn't feel like spending 4 hours on dinner. One was enough. *chuckles*

As it is, I made Beef Stroganoff... sorta. Without the wide egg noodles, I decided to make some Spatzle... it's a german pasta-type-dumpling-type thing.

===Now Playing Pull Me Under: Dream Theater -- Suggested By Charles===

Beef stroganoff from scratch... stew meat. The only thing that was pre-made, was the package of onion soup mix. There's just a little bit left. *smiles softly*

The spatzle takes the longest to make. *shrugs*

*apologizes as she's caught up in this song and not really thinking*

This world is
spinning around me
This world is
spinning without me
and every day since
future to past
every breath leaves me
one less to my last

pull me under
pull me under
pull me under
I'm not afraid....

I figure I've probably gotten some of the words wrong... but that's what I could catch....

*shakes her head* Woah....

*sighs softly*

===*looks at Sympatico* WOAH!!! *chuckles at the inside joke*===

Pull me under
pull me under
pull me under
I'm not afraid

all that I feel
is honor and spite

*shakes her head* Frag me... I wasn't listening to the words the first time I listened to it, Charles.... Why don't you send me the lyrics? *chuckles, knowing she could look them up herself* Yeah, okay, okay, okay... quit yer bitchin. I"ll do it myself. *chuckles*

Hmmmm. I like that song.

===Now Playing The Sentinel: Steve Porcaro -- The theme to the TV show of the same name. Only have 30 seconds of it, couldn't find the whole thing.... but I'd love to get the whole thing if any of you can find it....===

Mmmmmmmmm, the Sentinel. I love that they film most of this in Tacoma... I see places I used to live almost every time I watch the show. For those of you who DON'T have Sci-Fi... you need to get it, if just to see the Sentinel. And, for those of you into the shorter men... *smirks* Blair isn't bad... But.... *sighs then changest the subject*

===Now Playing Iris: Goo Goo Dolls===

Well... back to this song..... Yeah, you bleed just to know you're alive Damn...

Okay... well, I've been listening to music for almost two hours now, just tapping away at these keys. *chuckles* Marathon entries are my life.

You know..... I'd never be able to do the challenge Uncle Bob thought up so long ago. An entry an hour for 24 hours. *laughs* I'd never be able to do that unless I started typing two days in advance. *laughs softly* That means, about an hour in those two days for bathroom breaks and letting Joey out... and then straight typing the rest of the time. *grins*

NO, I'm not gonna do it. Besides, six entries in two days was enough to fulfil the mamoth entry quota. *smirks*

someday, tho, I might be tempted to do that. I know that Malkie-pooh had thought about doing it, but wouldn't do it alone.

===Now Playing Unforgiven Too: Metallica===

Anyway... I'm getting close to the end of my stamina, and I"m sure there are a few people just waiting to pounce upon my name as soon as I come online... It happens every single night. AS soon as I log on, at least 5 different people PM me immediately, and it's like popcorn flying from my screen. *chuckles*

I love it, of course... but it's still irritating when I'm trying to pander to the whims of my audience.

Erm.....

Or something

Anyway... I'm out now.

Love to you all, mine dauhlinks.