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2000-04-18 - 23:25:58 More and different and new poetry and schtuff... Tears of such exquisite joy flow from my closed eyes as again your lips find mine. Your swift tongue slides against my own, matching the rhythm of your heat within me. And I need you still. Your blood flows within my veins. Your mouth breathing from my lungs; I breathe in your life as you tease my fingers. You wrap your own round them. I moan as your lips pull away from mine. You move your mouth to my breast, allowing the heat of your breath to caress the nipple before touching your tongue to it. The gasp slides from between my lips as your lips close upon their prize. My hands explore your wide, muscular back. I can feel every line, every sinew beneath your smooth skin. My fingers rest for a moment at your waist and I tremble as you push me slowly closer to the edge. Once again I move my hands upon your back. My thighs spread a bit futher and you take everything I give, filling me so fully. You push me again and I fall over the edge. I close my eyes, laying my head back into the pillows. You frame my face in your hands, covering my cheeks, chin and lips with feather light I hear you groan, the sound bringing a quiver to my lips as it becomes a growl. It takes all the control you have to stay with me. And I laugh, knowing this; knowing that I am pulling you toward the stars. I feel you jump within me. You're so eager, so needy. I tease you a moment more, squeezing you tightly inside. You gasp, a gutteral groan of urgency. Then, I release you and move forward. I squeeze your waist with my knees. You give a soft grunt of pleasure, smiling into my eyes. You grab me and push into me roughly, growling with effort. You push the breath from my lungs. I feel the tingling throughout my body. Your final thrust sends me flying as I feel your seed filling me. I flood you, falling to your chest. I close my eyes for just a moment and then slowly open them to find you gone. And again you are only a voice on the other end of the line. We say our goodbyes. I hang up the phone. And again I cry myself to sleep. So you want to heal this heart in me My friend, feel free to try There's no way out that I can see But to you I won't lie The fear is there, I feel it's power Teasing, taunting, wailing Through every day, every hour A promise of your failing I try to run, to get away I seek a place to hide I see your words, know what you say Still I'm only terror's bride And here within, inside this soul The monster here does reign It forces me back into my hole Exploiting me, my pain Still you want to heal this heart in me I'm so scared for you to try For all this pain, this misery Is begging me to die And still I hold on, oh so tightly This thread of peace grows weaker the monster screaming, raging nightly An evil, wrong, foul creature In the mirror I quite clearly see The raging form I wear The pain within, it's ruling me Raw hate, without care Tho the mask I show to those around It covers all my face Still the fear and rage abound Setting a deadly pace And what will happen when you tire When you soon bore of me My sorrow calls, stokes the fire The blood-lust, hunger, greed My soul is raw, blood flows free The anguish rising higher The steel bands squeeze, killing me Can nothing soothe this fire Ah this pain it strangles, suffocates My dreams and hope it claims Within the dark's cold shadow waits Without face, playing games Still you try to heal this heart of mine Can't you see you can't succeed I'm too far gone, rage rules my mind I harvest fury's seed The beast within, no me, my own It drives my every breath The rage set free, my blade to hone My steel will cause your death And yet you do not run away To hide, to save your life You stay, standing in my way Ignoring war and strife And when your time draws near to die You'll see tears upon my face But still my blade o'er your throat will fly The pattern ingrained, in place My love, I fear this beast in me A thing I can't control But still you're here, my rage you see Your life, your love, they're whole Oh to feel your peace, your love, your hope A fearless stance you take yet I'm bound within a web of rope My own peace ne'er to make And again to heal this heart of mine Your patience does amaze Hopeless here I sit, I'm blind Will the tears change my ways To my knees do I fall, so hard Mem'ries whirling through my mind A flood of tears, it breaks this heart The pain I've cause, All mine If I open my eyes, will you have gone For that's been the way it goes I stand, then break, healing almost done... But my healer's door has closed Then I'm left alone to fight my way Up from these depths of hate Another scar validates what I say The void seals my fate Will you stay til I stand again til I can breathe clear air Or will you flee, giving me fresh pain Drowning me in dispair So you want to heal this heart of mine My friend, do, please try You know the fear, doubt in my mind And with you, I won't lie Tho terror grips and threates to keep me flailing in my personal hell, I must find a way out. You have offered me a chance at life, and I will not let go of the hand you reach toward me. I'll take hold of you and trust in you... but know this, love. If you do choose to leave before completing the job, my blade will drink deeply of your blood. An End And the death blow has been dealt For I'm told my words are wrong But who are you to criticize The fears within my song Your words just prove my point That no man can truly give At least none such as you You destroy that place I live You've cut and slashed with cruel intent On my pain I see you feed And naught but hate you show to me You laugh here while I bleed All I have I give to you My life, my love, my soul And yet it's not enough You bury me in this hole I confess my fear, the pain I wear My dark and deadly mask I hold my broken, bleeding self To listen, all I ask But you can't give me the room I need Can't tread gently round my pain You cut and rip, tear and shred Destroying me once again Will there never be a day When the anguish here will fade Not with you to watch over me In the grave have I been laid That's it for now... J AKA Tiger AKA Vic
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