I have to start keeping a food diary. Not online, of course. And not public, either. But I have to start keeping track of what I eat, when, why and how much... And then, how I feel emotionally/physically/physiologically afterward.

I haven't given any thought to my food intake in so long that I don't remember why I eat food at all. I mean, it wasn't until tonight that I realized there are some things I eat because I automatically "know" that I'll never get to see that specific kind of food again.

I had two helpings of lasagna tonight. Not the good, high quality, home made kind of lasagna either. But generic Stouffers lasagna.

I ate two helpings. Not because I was hungry. Cause I wasn't hungry anymore after the first half of the first helping.

I have to actually take some interest in my life. Coasting along on auto-pilot isn't good enough for me anymore.